What is completely ironic about these two individuals is that to the rest of the world, they’re upstanding citizens, doing the “right” thing for the “right” people with the “right” job and the “right” way. They get positive confirmations from the dominant culture because they went to school, went to church, worked for the corporation, worked for the ministry and they are branded successful by their peers, even though they’re both total fucking liars, hypocrites and completely different people in private.

Once when I worked on yacht charters as a server/bartender, we had a convention for the big boys of Chevron. This was during my pre-porn/pre-stripping days, I was aware I was attractive and that I could use that as a tool, but I still wasn’t sure how and I didn’t know how to hustle or empath these men. But, I knew enough to wear tight, black, pencil skirts with a slit up the side and black lace thigh highs that the right someone would be able to see because I knew this strategy would make me good tips. All night I had been hearing comments from these men, I wasn’t sure how to direct their attention, so it was pretty much just an exercise in observation. Towards the end of the party for the big boys at Chevron I was clearing up the table in front of one man and he reached out and grabbed my forearm. He wanted to know what nationality I was (a common question I get, no I am not Twatina or HIGH-talian) I told him that I was Cherokee and Scottish. He went on to  try and convince me of how enlightened he was because he did all of this research once upon a time into Native American culture and blah blah blah. Then he asked me if I was going to school for anything and I said I already did. He asked what I went to school for and when I replied massage therapy, he had the audacity to snicker in my face. This asshole, who, with the aid of his cronies, is literally RAPING the planet for an unsustainable resource has the AUDACITY to laugh in my face because I went to school for a healing art? FUCK YOU.

This is the attitude that the two people I’m attempting to vaguely refer to, have held about me in the long time spans I’ve known them.

They both act as if I’m so low and common because of my sexual history because I didn’t go to a “real” college, because I don’t have a “real” job, because basically I don’t do what society tells me I’m supposed to do… because I do what I want.

But they’re “good” people, whilst one that has paid me for my services also rants to children about JESUS and the other has gone to school, gotten the “real” job but has also fucked for drugs.

But I’m the awful person. I’m the common whore. I’m the uneducated peasant.

Well at least I have the courage to be my whole self to the world.

At least I have the decency to try and be open about myself, at least I have the decency to not act righteous above others and pretend to abide by a dogmatic system that I, myself do not. At least I don’t look down on someone else for sex work whilst I fuck the local drug dealer for a bargain.

This country is run by hypocrites, the laws are written by hypocrites…everything of importance is run by hypocrites.

They want to pretend like they don’t do drugs, curse or fuck (especially not the same sex *gasp*) in public but behind closed doors its a completely different story. They’re insecure assholes that want to prevent the world from having too much fun, because people are easier to control that way, especially when you make them feel ashamed about normal human functions. Especially when you instill a system with standards that only a small percentage of people can attain, but the rest are supposed to try and scramble to achieve.

So, thanks for reading my blog. You can go back to your MTV, CNN, Fox news, Budweiser, Marlboros and McDonald’s now. Don’t forget about Jesus!

I mean, what is it supposed to be in comparison to anyways? Chocolate? Which denotes what? BDSM and other really trendy “kinky” fetishes that are hot at the moment?

So anything that feels pleasurable is boring and therefore, vanilla? Eww.

Shouldn’t chocolate be the tastier, more pleasurable choice?

Thats what I think.

I like chocolate and red wine sex, relaxed, no pretentious bullshit (which is extremely prevalent with the BDSM scene) just good old fashioned feel good sex.

And all that “kinky” fetish stuff should be labeled as nettles. It just makes more sense.