What Does Body Hair Mean to You?
I’m going back to dancing tomorrow.
I’m not ready.
I’m at war with my body right now, I let myself gain weight and I’m too depressed to work hard to get rid of it. I’ve had the time and I’ve just let it slide by. Why?
And I don’t want to shave.
I’m also on the brink of being completely flat ass broke. Webcamming is slow as usual and my boyfriend loses his job in two weeks.
Whats a girl to do.
We just went to check out the nearest club called Eden. Its ok. The normal strip club stench hit me like a ton when we walked in the door. Its the usual mix of cheap perfume, cigarette smoke and sex.
But the women are all skinny. Alot skinnier than they were at the last club I worked at.
I’m not skinny right now. I hate my body right now and I feel like my body hair is the last thing I have to show for Australia.
It holds a lot of sentimentality for me right now and I’m not even sure why.
Maybe because its the physical representation of the way I made a bunch of money while telling the patriarchal system FUCK YOU and your idiotic grooming and body standards on femininity.
But being homeless and broke I don’t like. My Venus is in Taurus, perhaps that has something to do with it.
I can do this.
I can fucking do this.
I can shave, I can put on a dress, I can paint my face, I can step up on the stage and dance.
I will crawl my way back up to the top.
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